i found a song :)

im breaking slowly
like the concrete under your feet
something you will have forgotten by the time you walk by

im dying slowly
like a snowman in the summer heat
something you lost interest in along time ago

they say you are perfect
even say your divine
but you forgot about me once upon a time

the one we are told to lend our hearts to
the one that we are supposed to devote our lives too
but its hard to give the thing that has already been taken

brain washed out whole lived
by the time we realize its too late to change
here i am
this is my first step
admitting to you through the things that helped me when you wernt there
goodbye to you

idk if there are on here, but i need more room on my flash drive, so im putting them here! (:

She hides her face everyday
Just leave her alone
She’s torn into pieces
“Don’t waste your time of me” (she screams)

Lost in emotion
She can’t wait to wake up from this dream

Day after day all
She can do is pray
And hope someone is listening

Night after night
She’ll cry and she’ll cry
Till she cries herself to sleep

It’s always the same routine
“Why does nothing ever change?”
Is what she screams

One day she’ll wake up and she’ll say “this is my last day”

She won’t hide her face
She won’t tell a lie
She won’t’ even let herself cry
Cuz this is the end
The end
Woh oh, this is the end

Maybe you’ll look back on what you’ve done
Maybe you’ll wish you could take it all back

But it’s too late
She’s lost from this world
And ain’t never coming back

Don’t take all the blame
This wasn’t your fault
She just couldn’t take anymore

She your dumb books
She played by the rules
But she found one she had to break
It was just too much

But this is, this is the end
The end
Woh oh the end

Now she’s alone
Happy and at peace
So just let her be

Because this is the end
The end
Woh oh woh oh
The end
The end
This is her end
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Laying awake at 4am
With thoughts of you still stirring in my head
And I know,
That it will never be
My reality

Your kiss is like Novocain to me
As it pumps through my vein
And my body goes weak
I fall to my knees
And I no longer breathe

As if you have taken the life out of me

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I’ve cried
I’ve bled
Through all these times, I can’t believe I’m not dead
I’ve lived, in darkness half my life
Afraid to let love in my heart
Afraid to no smile one day

I walk this path
An empty road
But I know that someone else is here
For once I’m not alone

And we live
We shine through all this pain

And one day when the underdog reins
We will stand up and unite
For once we won’t have to fight

Lost in a maze of hate
Trapped in a jungle of hurt
Just wishing I could be loose
From these chains
Wrapped so tight
Cutting off my circulation

I can’t breathe
I can’t bleed
Naturally I have met my end

In this world
I am lost
Trapped behind these bars like I am criminally insane
But maybe I really am

If only you could see the colors shining in me
The light darkened by the hate
The ink stain on my heart
From being scratched out
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every time i cry, its because of your lies
slowly eating me away

your lies will be the death of me
untill i rise away

my death will be slow
and it shall be painfull
just waiting for the day to end

but pain birngs me joy
and joy is all so sweet
untill we all meet our defeat

and you brough me joy,
and u defeated me
and now this is all that left

just a lonley person
sitting
and sulking in her own tears
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this is a song
because im forcing it out
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i remember the day i first met you
i remember the time that i first touched you
i grazed my figers across your, face

and to this day i will still remeber, you
and to this day i never will miss you, more
than i thought
was ever, ever possiable

so i hope now that you have moved on
that you will still remeber me
and i know, you know, that, i will never forget you

i wish i could show you
the things that we use to talk about
i wish we could runaway from this life
but maybe one day because all we have left is today

i look back, at all the memories
i wish we could relive them, all over and over again

i hope that you won't forget me
i hope that you come back for me
and hold me again, the way you did that day

i wish i could show you
the things that we use to talk about
i wish we could runaway from this life
but maybe one day because all we have left is today

relive all these memories of you
see all the new things that we can do
cuz were older now and have no restrains today
so we can, take this world and make it our play ground

so please stay
cuz all we have is today
all we, all we have left is today
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watch it crumble at your feet
see you cry in your defeat
open your eyes, and close your heart
the world is ours!

which way do i turn
go to heaven or to hell
the hardest choice ill ever choose
lets go

heaven will save me from hell
hell will save me from heaven
oh wait
its too late to decide

so cut my wrists and black my eyes
as i say i wanna die
fuck you

im acting like im typing shit so that i can surpass this pain
im acting like im breathing so i don't fade a way
taking my life i'm away is all you are good for

day by day i'll go
thinking of everything we've done
all the good, all the bad
and theres about of that

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this sickness i have
in my brain, in my head
poisning myself untill i take my last breath
this life wont let me leave
i will no longer be able to take the lead
and kill this voice that tells me im not insane

i know that i gone
so far out of this eart
please take me away and save me
please dont let me return to this mess

i walk and i run
and ill skip with no song
trying to avoivd everything i have forgotten
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we were both once young
and you know how the story goes
you were the boy
and i was the girl
that just happened to become one

so bac to the [be]ginning
where it all started to unfold
back to where the grass was green
and the air was so very sweet sweet

[yeah]
thats where i met you

you said hey
and i said hello

who would of guessed this would be the start of something new
[not me]

i know you say
that you dnt beleive in love at first sight
but baby, now
i do
becauce ouf you
thank you for opening my eyes
so the sweetest thing, since apple pie

i thought we'd last forever
but sadily i was mistaken

and you never account for the day i'd see you
[with her]

so bac to the [be]ginning
where it all started to unfold
back to where the grass was green
and the air was so very sweet sweet

[yeah]
thats where i met you

you said hey
and i said hello

who would of guessed this would be the start of something new
[not me]
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im two parts apathy and one part despair
because somethimes is seems as if no one cares
and we all know that we can't become multimillionaires

so choke the breath out of us
sufficating out lives, we just cant adjust
to this place filled with all this insanity and lust
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watch it crumble at your feet
see you cry in your defeat
open your eyes, and close your heart
the world is ours!
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i see you
and i kno you see me too
out eyes meet
from across the room
and i kno
the way you feel
beleive me

because i was once you
before i turned u into me
i cried
and i tried
almost everything
i could
do to
forget about you
about you

so now
i sit
i look in you eyes
i see
that you
are about to cry

i kno
wat we
had was love
i kno
how true
you were to me
and that
every word
was relieable

i wish
i could
undo the hurt
not just for me
but for you too

i want you back
and i can pay the price
of never having you
in my life


i know
that i will never be able
to
take back the hurtfull things i put you throuhg

i wsih
that we
could still be toegher once more
before
the end us will come

goody bye
is suck an awful word
when one fells how i fell
because of how i made you hurt


im sorry

i didn't mean to

i still love

i wanna hold you tight

please come back
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all we have left it today :)

this is a song
because im forcing it out
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i remember the day i first met you
i remember the time that i first touched you
i grazed my fingers across your, face

and to this day i will still remember, you
and to this day i never will miss you, more
than i thought
was ever, ever possible

so i hope now that you have moved on
that you will still remember me
and i know, you know, that, i will never forget you

i wish i could show you
the things that we use to talk about
i wish we could, run away from this life
but maybe one day because all we have left is today

i look back, at all the memories
i wish we could relive them, all over and over again

i hope that you won't forget me
i hope that you come back for me
and hold me again, the way you did that day

i wish i could show you
the things that we use to talk about
i wish we could run away from this life
but maybe one day because all we have left is today

relive all these memories of you
see all the new things that we can do
cuz were older now and have no restrains today
so we can, take this world and make it our little place to play

so please stay
cuz all we have is today
all we, all we have left is today
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its kinda to the tone of rainbow veins by owl city
and its kinda obvious what its about
but kind of not
because it seems like a loveish song
wich i guess it is
but it isnt
10 pts to who ever figures out what its about

dead bodies
dead bodies
dead bodies every where
walking around hearing people say
"hey look over here"

fuck with me and ill fuck you up
and beleive me u dnt want a glock up your butt

i have no fear
not even the fear of getting caught
ill just look down in praise you body outlined in that police chalk

when i was scared
when i had still fear
maybe i wouldnt have adhered to such a crazy attempt
and beleive me i have no resentment for what i have done

a knife in your back
slit the throat
puncture your lungs
and leave u laying their hopeless and in complete despair
leave you alone bleeding, there is no repair for you

laugh as you die
sing as you cry
watch you loose your supply of oxygen
which is slowly depleting
your life is now fleeting
ill give you a finial beating
and then you fade away

your life is no more
the power i seek
is not for the meek
this happens almost every day of the weak
now ill play hide and go seek
with the police

i bet theyd never suspect
but this is just a side effect
of what you have done to me

dead bodies
dead bodies
dead bodies every where

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srry, i was just really fucking pissed
at people
as you would kno if u read my other blog

i also wanted to practice my rhyming
its sucks
x_x

meh w/e...

with the tears falling
all down ur face
its like they are raining from every angel of space
always crying
nothing more
and nothing ever less
they just keep falling
with no regret

they day you stop
is that day the world will tear open
the heavens and the hell will meet
you finially have met ur defeat

cuz one day we all give up
and we all give in
theres nothimg more to do but commit a sin
the worse of them all
the worse that u can do
i kno what you thinking
and yea, ur probably right
to kill urslef seems like the right answer
but little do u kno it ur just a dancer
in this game that we are all forced to play
this little game called life
so just throw the dice and take another turn

it will end soon enough
but she just couldnt stand the rough road ahead of her
she goes on day after day
wishing she had enough fait to pray
to that man in that sky
but is he really there?
no, he not
just a myth that people are playing off in their head
its not real
nothing is
what you are doinging is an aimless task in this world

so waking up on a sunday morning saying today it the day
with people begging please why won't you stay
but you don;t wanna hear
so your not trying to listen
cuz pissing people off isnt gonna make them not miss you

love or hatred
your still on someone mind
the absense of you can just leave us all behind wondering how we could have stopped it from happening this way

im sorry but i can no longer write this stupid song
i just can bear the thought of loosing someone as amazing as you

this sounded better in my head 14hrs ago

these lines
on this paper
as perfect as they seem
are just imperfections to me
if perfect existed
this would not be me
if perfect was real
we would come together as one
if life was perfect
you would still be here
if life was perfect
but in the end
all we find
is that perfect
will never be

so here i am
alone and lost in this world of misery
too bad it will never be as perfect
as we thought it would be

with all these imperfections
we need to face reality today
cuz perfect will never be

5 years ago was the time i couldn't see
perfect in me

as you watch time go by
i hope you will learn to see
that theres no perfect to see

the only perfect you can see
is not in me
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after the pssas i wrote this
and maybe thats y it sounded to good
i was soo goddamn tired

Laying awake at 4am
With thoughts of you still stirring in my head
And I know,
That it will never be
My reality

Your kiss is like Novocain to me
As it pumps through my vein
And my body goes weak
I fall to my knees
And I no longer breathe

As if you have taken the life out of me

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I’ve cried
I’ve bled
Through all these times, I can’t believe I’m not dead
I’ve lived, in darkness half my life
Afraid to let love in my heart
Afraid to no smile one day

I walk this path
An empty road
But I know that someone else is here
For once I’m not alone

And we live
We shine through all this pain

And one day when the underdog reins
We will stand up and unite
For once we won’t have to fight

Lost in a maze of hate
Trapped in a jungle of hurt
Just wishing I could be loose
From these chains
Wrapped so tight
Cutting off my circulation

I can’t breathe
I can’t bleed
Naturally I have met my end

In this world
I am lost
Trapped behind these bars like I am criminally insane
But maybe I really am

If only you could see the colors shining in me
The light darkened by the hate
The ink stain on my heart
From being scratched out
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i made sooo many edits to these
and didnt fell like adding them
its like 345am
x_x
imma die from no sleeep
lolz

idk if i posted this here or not..

this sickness i have
in my brain, and in my head
poisning myself untill i take my finial breath
this life wont let me leave
i will no longer be able to take the lead
and kill this voice that tells me im not insane

i know that im gone
so far out of this earth
please take me away and save me
please dont let me return to this mess

i walk and i run
and ill skip with no song
trying to avoivd everything i have forgotten
i cant stand this pain
i can't take this missery
every day i live is a day closer untill i die

as i walk alone in the woods that i fear
i never expected to meet you there
you saw me alone with cuts scabs and bruises
to bad it was too late and you couln't save me

so as our eyes locked
my heart just stoped
not one beat was left, i have met my defeat
all alone i have left you
with just this memory
now your trying to fight the pain of me

attempting to write a screamo song

because i can kinda scream pretty good now
:)

so i wanna make a song
and record it just to delete it and bitch that a suck

here it is so far...but once im finished and edit it...
it probably will be un-reconcilable..
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watch it crumble at your feet
see you cry in your defeat
open your eyes, and close your heart
the world is ours!

which way do i turn
go to heaven or to hell
the hardest choice ill ever choose
lets go

heaven will save me from hell
hell will save me from heaven
oh wait
its too late to decide

so cut my wrists and black my eyes
as i say i wanna die
fuck you

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ignore the fact i ripped of lean like an emo
which ripped off ohio is for lovers by hawthorn heights

palindrome

the bolded things are palindromes, this is sooooo retarded, but i felt like being a retard and posting it, bahaha, please laugh :)

Hello madam. Can you please get on my level? I think I need a Cigar? Toss it in a can. It is so tragic. And you are so pathetic. And Dammit, I'm Mad. Don't nod. No, no, no don’t nod in agreement with me. Now we know that God lived as a deviled dog. Wooh oh oh oh wooh oh. He would always ask “I did, did I?” ohooh he did, eh? Well I don’t know and neither do you my friend. Now toss me that cigar love. Yes madam, I live evil. But I ask of you Live not on evil, madam, live not on evil, madam, please. I’m just a lonely Tylenol addict, baby. So save me. All my nurses run away from me in fear that I will kill them out of love. Won't lovers revolt now? We need to revolt and stand up against all of this brutality! Please. I just have one question for you madam. You can cage a swallow, can't you, but you can't swallow a cage, can you? Oh no, you can’t. lets clean this place and let’s leave No trace; not one carton should be left. Would you like a bottle of red rum? Murder juice is what it really is.

this part sld be repeating throughouht the whole song, faintly in the background

(Dennis, Nell, Edna, Leon, Nedra, Anita, Rolf, Nora, Alice, Carol, Leo, Jane, Reed, Dena, Dale, Basil, Rae, Penny, Lana, Dave, Denny, Lena, Ida, Bernadette, Ben, Ray, Lila, Nina, Jo, Ira, Mara, Sara, Mario, Jan, Ina, Lily, Arne, Bette, Dan, Reba, Diane, Lynn, Ed, Eva, Dana, Lynne, Pearl, Isabel, Ada, Ned, Dee, Rena, Joel, Lora, Cecil, Aaron, Flora, Tina, Arden, Noel, and Ellen sinned.)

in the works...

i look like high
i feel like im wasted
wont somebody pull the plug
to save me from myself

i havent slept for day
feels like im wasting away
soon enough ill be gone
nothing more than a bitter taste in you mouth

two more random ones i found on my flash drive...

i see you
and i kno you see me too
out eyes meet
from across the room
and i kno
the way you feel
beleive me

because i was once you
before i turned u into me
i cried
and i tried
almost everything
i could
do to
forget about you
about you

so now
i sit
i look in you eyes
i see
that you
are about to cry

i kno
wat we
had was love
i kno
how true
you were to me
and that
every word
was relieable

i wish
i could
undo the hurt
not just for me
but for you too

i want you back
and i can pay the price
of never having you
in my life


i know
that i will never be able
to
take back the hurtfull things i put you throuhg

i wsih
that we
could still be toegher once more
before
the end us will come

goody bye
is suck an awful word
when one fells how i fell
because of how i made you hurt


im sorry

i didn't mean to

i still love

i wanna hold you tight

please come back
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we were both once young
and you know how the story goes
you were the boy
and i was the girl
that just happened to become one

so bac to the [be]ginning
where it all started to unfold
back to where the grass was green
and the air was so very sweet sweet

[yeah]
thats where i met you

you said hey
and i said hello

who would of guessed this would be the start of something new
[not me]

i know you say
that you dnt beleive in love at first sight
but baby, now
i do
becauce ouf you
thank you for opening my eyes
so the sweetest thing, since apple pie

i thought we'd last forever
but sadily i was mistaken

and you never account for the day i'd see you
[with her]

so bac to the [be]ginning
where it all started to unfold
back to where the grass was green
and the air was so very sweet sweet

[yeah]
thats where i met you

you said hey
and i said hello

who would of guessed this would be the start of something new
[not me]

whit out you

3am and the phone rings
the words i hears
ares words i hope i never hear again
as they were said
all my blood turned red as the sea
with every dying gasp i breathed

i cant stand to be with out you
i cannot live with out you
i cannot function with out you in my life
i find it hard to breathe
i find it hard to speak
i find it hard to sleep
i find it hard to live
with out you
and i miss you

thought it was a nightmare
the worse one ever knowns
but three days later it became reality
as i saw you laying there

i cant stand to be with out you
i cannot live with out you
i cannot function with out you in my life
i find it hard to breathe
i find it hard to speak
i find it hard to sleep
i find it hard to live
with out you
and i miss you

you were laying so limp
so peacefull at last
i look back at all the memories we shared
and gawd how i miss them
i miss them

i cant stand to be with out you
i cannot live with out you
i cannot function with out you in my life
i find it hard to breathe
i find it hard to speak
i find it hard to sleep
i find it hard to live
with out you
and i miss you

three weeks later, im still crying
i go for a visit
it's dark and draby
still not wanting what i see before me to be the truth
but it is
it is

i cant stand to be with out you
i cannot live with out you
i cannot function with out you in my life
i find it hard to breathe
i find it hard to speak
i find it hard to sleep
i find it hard to live
with out you
and i miss you

and now to this day
i still mourn your loss
and how it hurts me
the tears start to roll
so i grab a razor blade
a few minutes later i'll be with you once again
and i won't miss you
cuz ill be with you
with you...

emo junk??

the pain and the tears
all the blood that was shed
will never amount to anything
just a bigh waste of time
and a sorry excuse of a life that i lead

i dont wanna cry
i dont wanna bleed
i dont wanna go on any more
this shit has no place in my life or my faith
but it still remains

this homes just a hell
full of these tears i cry
and all of these memories i dont want to be here

when i come her and sit
all i fell is this pain
i've felt it for year
and here come the tears
its to vivid

i dont wanna be
another face in the crowd
i wanna be away from it all
from the people and things, everything i hate the most
please just stop caring about me

i dont have the strength
i dont have the will power
to go on any more
but ill try for you
cuz i cant bare the pain to miss you
and i dont want to leave you

i just wanna leave my life
run away from it all
i just wanna get the hell out of this place i call a home
it's not my home

a home is not a place to fear
you sould actually wanna go there
and stay there

every day i come back
i cant wait to get out
i cant wait to be free
not confined in this space
that only holds hate toward me

not confined to these walls
not bound by these rules
but to be free
to do what i want
to be what im not
to soar as high as can be

but i want, what i want
and i cant have what i want
it's never gonna be my way
but its okay
because im already gone

its okay

ive lost all control

and now im gone

combo of a few short ones...

Liar
i'll be comming home tonight [she said]
^yea right^
i know you see right through her
[through her]
i know you see her lies
[her lies]
she'll say she loves you then just ^walk away and leave you stranded^
[^stranded!!!!!!!^]
but beleive me when i tell you that ^i love you^
^love you^
^^love you^^
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Left behind
from a young age [^age^] they teach you to ^pray^
no one want to be ^left^
be ^left^
^be left behind^[^vbehindv^]
no one
wants to be
^forgotten^
they tell you you commandments ^commandments^
[^vbull shitv^]
^go to church^ or rot in hell
in hell
but i
but i
^^but iiiiiiiiii^^
^dont need to be saved^
because
i
am
^^^gooooodddddd^^^
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the ^ and v are from different types of screams
xD

so perfect?

your so perfect
woh oj
your so perfect
if your so perfect then why arn't you with me?

your the first thought in the morning when i wake up
your the last thing that crosses my mind at night
when we're not talking, your all i can talk about

woh oh
your so perfect
you should be with me
but your not

i stay up at night just looking for your faults
i think and i think
till mornings dawn
and all that i come across is that there are none

you say me and him are perfect as can be
oooh ooh
if only you knew i wish it where you

if only you could see inside my dreams

your so perfect
woh oh
your so perfect
woh oh
your so perfect
you should be with me

"IM SO F***ING TIRED OF THESE SONGS ABOUT ~-~-~-~ no one"

why is everything i do wrong?
how come i never come out on top?
why would i play this same old game again

I can't help that i'm weak
I can't help i don't care

I'm sorry i lie
I'm sorry i cry
But it's so hard to go on without you

I can't stop the pain
it's to strong to ignore

i cant stop the tears
i cant bare the pain

i woan't take this any more
because i can't take this any more

i dream of the day ill lay in bed and not think about you
i dream of the day ill meet you again
i dream that i'll never wake up

but that day shall come

in time i watched you age
then with time i saw you fade
please dont
no, please don't leave me here to waste
i still
i still need you!!

the end?

She hides her face everyday
Just leave her alone
She’s torn into pieces
“Don’t waste your time of me” (she screams)

Lost in emotion
She can’t wait to wake up from this dream

Day after day all
She can do is pray
And hope someone is listening

Night after night
She’ll cry and she’ll cry
Till she cries herself to sleep

It’s always the same routine
“Why does nothing ever change?”
Is what she screams

One day she’ll wake up and she’ll say “this is my last day”

She won’t hide her face
She won’t tell a lie
She won’t’ even let herself cry
Cuz this is the end
The end
Woh oh, this is the end

Maybe you’ll look back on what you’ve done
Maybe you’ll wish you could take it all back

But it’s too late
She’s lost from this world
And ain’t never coming back

Don’t take all the blame
This wasn’t your fault
She just couldn’t take anymore

She your dumb books
She played by the rules
But she found one she had to break
It was just too much

But this is, this is the end
The end
Woh oh the end

Now she’s alone
Happy and at peace
So just let her be

Because this is the end
The end
Woh oh woh oh
The end
The end
This is her end